Answer is!

I'm sum total of lot of things. An accumulation of experiences and emotions. When I'm with you and say that I want to see a future with you, I'm bringing all that is me with me. And parts of me including the people I was born to and people I've grown up with and people I've crossed paths with so far.

I've decided to accommodate and spend time with all the people you bring from your life. That may cause joy, sadness, exhilaration, distress, brightness, darkness and anything that I can think of and not think of. But I'll go through all that because you'll be around. That's what is important to me. And I'll also keep telling you how I feel, throughout.

It may so happen that you may not be the person that I am. And that is OK for me. We are not loving each other just for what we like about each other. We are loving each other and that outweighs what we not love each other for. Or what we hate each other for.

When you tell me about whatever that causes discomfort to you and when that discomfort comes from very me, I'll make sure I withdraw and make you comfortable. What I would do is work towards the end, to end the discomfort. Even if that means putting myself in discomfort. So here, my discomfort is what I offer in love to you to alleviate your discomfort. But between two lovers, discomfort for one augments discomfort for both. Inevitably fucking hard situation. Beauty is also that both lovers see the trade off and each other's endeavours and start to love each other more. That's life. That's future I see with you. And when I say future, I mean every bit of my future alive and kicking. Alive and kicking with the new life we live. New life with new person we give space to grow up. She growing up getting all the love that she deserves in the world. In the world with all the happiness that she personifies and calls herself Lasya.

Why am I talking about something that's relatively far in the future? But yes I want to talk about it. Because that is something I already have started seeing in my future. Our future. And the future that keeps me lively now at present and future that gives me a meaning at present to live.